I’ve had this blog for years now, and I have really come to love using this as a place of expression through pictures and text. One thing I’ve never particularly enjoyed, though, is this. Writing an all-encompassing “about me” page.

Time and time again I have struggled to paint an image of myself and who I am through words. I’ve done paragraphs, I’ve done bullet points, I’ve done minimal information…but to no avail. So please, bear with me as I try to tell you who I am in the most genuine way.

My name is Nicole (as you may have gathered already from my side panel) and I am a 20-year-old student attending a private university in Ohio. When I was 16, I decided that I wanted to teach music; after all, I’d been playing the flute since I was in 5th grade, and band was really the only thing I enjoyed about school. So, why not teach it?

Well, I got through a whole year of college before realizing, hm, I’m not about that. I want flexibility, I want to travel, and the last thing I want to do is be tied down. I simply am not teacher material. So, I decided to drop my Music Education degree and take on Flute Performance instead. This is something that I was too intimidated to do in the first place, but with the help of my professors and peers, I have grown so much as a performer to the point where I believe in my potential. People call me crazy, they tell me that it’s useless, and I constantly get asked, “well, what are you gonna DO with that?”, but I truly do not care. 

I never pictured myself as the conductor of an ensemble, but rather the soloist.

I am, however, working on a minor in Public Relations, so I at least have some sort of minimal business experience to fall back on if needed. This also settled down my parents and relatives about the whole ordeal, so there’s that.

I am now a junior in college, and I finally feel like I’ve figured stuff out for now. As for what happens to me after graduation, I’m a little unsure. Because I’ll most likely be attending graduate school the fall after graduation (if I get accepted after my auditions) then I would love to use the summer between as a time for me to travel.

I’ve always been filled with wanderlust. We’re so comfortable and settled in our lifestyles nowadays that I feel most young people become restless as they see their imminent futures creeping nearer. Well, that’s how I feel, at least. I just want to explore and absorb the cultures around me; I want to learn from where I go! I’ve always been fond of mountains, and places in the world with such scenes. I hope to be able to travel when I get the chance.

Well…if I keep going, I’ll end up writing a novel. Because of that, I’m going to revert to some bullet points with random facts that I’d rather not formally write:

  • I’m a sucker for animals. It’s really bad (good?). My parents hate me due to the fact that I take in any stray before getting it proper care. I’ve helped multiple cats, mice, birds, and even a hummingbird as they have crossed paths with me. I am afraid of spiders, though…they creep me out a lil bit.
  • Instagram…the addiction is real.
  • Favorite bands/artists (that change all the time): Beirut, Lisa Hannigan, Lorde, CHVRCHES, Night Beds, Haim, Local Natives, Fleet Foxes, Bombay Bicycle Club, High Highs, Grimes, Lana Del Rey, Phosphorescent, Other Lives, and a little bitta One Direction never hurt anybody (it’s the best music to shamelessly dance around in your room to anyway).
  • I love to read! I suck at being consistent with it, but when I get into it, I go all out.
  • I’m an impulsive buyer. I need help. 
  • My parents divorced when I was about 5 years old, and my two younger sisters and I were lucky enough that it wasn’t messy and, since it happened when we were so young, we grew up accustomed to living with our parents having joint custody over us and dating/remarrying other people. I’m so fortunate for how well things turned out, and none of us are bitter about it; all we have to say about the situation are good things!
  • Deep down, I’m a hopeless romantic.
  • In high school, I marched the contra-style tuba for four years in marching band, and it was by far THE best high school experience I’ve ever had.
  • I’ve been teaching myself the ukulele, and it’s one of the most fun hobbies I’ve ever discovered. I’m an awful singer, but playing the ukulele and accompanying myself is something I shamelessly do while I’m home alone.
  • Going along with the impulsive buyer theme, I impulsively bought a $10 Irish penny whistle, and it’s the cutest thing I’ve ever bought. Because I already play flute, it wasn’t hard to pick up, so I see myself investing in a better quality instrument down the road. I also would love to purchase other “flute family” instruments, like a pan flute. It’s fun and I’d like to be well-rounded!
  • The rebellious side of me wants to say “fuck it” and get a nose ring. The scared little baby inside of me says “dad will disown you probably”
  • This whole “strong eyebrow game” is so strange to me. I’ve never filled in my brows as mine are incredibly thick & bushy, and I’d always felt so self-conscious about them after remarks had been made and I’d scrutinized myself. Now that bold brows are in, I guess you could say I’m pretty happy with them.
  • I’m not religious. I grew up with two loosely Christian parents who never baptized my sisters or myself because they couldn’t agree on a denomination. We also never went to church growing up, save for a few instances. I’m glad, though, because I was able to experience various branches of Christianity and even religions outside of that realm, as well as analyze them and choose what I wanted to believe. As of now, I don’t label myself as anything, although I would likely fall under being simply “spiritual”. I’m not comfortable enough to share some of my beliefs because not many people I know personally would agree (mild to heavy Christians) but I’m perfectly happy to keep to myself!
  • My love life is the weirdest, most unfortunate thing. I attract very strange people, to put it simply. Feel free to inquire about it in my ask, because I sure do have some stories to tell. Oh, and I’m currently single; despite a few middle/high school “things”, I’ve yet to experience a serious relationship.

If you’ve stuck around to read all of this: thank you! I hope you enjoy my blog, and never be afraid to get to know me; I’d love to get to know you, too!

Enjoy the vibes.